The distance

Is this real,
Is this fake..
Are you still along,
Or have you left afar
Are your palms still in mine
Or are they waving me good bye.
Is it me in your eyes as ever in past,
Or have I faded off the vast.....
Is it me residing in the sweet corner,
Or have I fallen from your heart in rush...
Is It me whom you miss every other moment,
Or am I now just a timely memory....

May be its just my thoughts,
My negatives, my sick feelings,
The distances, the fear of losing...

Or may be that's how it has been,
The other way....
The Way which I feared..
Feared of every thing that came,
In it's way....

Fear of the distance in between,
Fear of loneliness...
Fear of losing a bestie
Fear of losing my love.
Fear of losing that heart of love,
Actions of care,
Words of affection, eyes of honesty,
Whisper's of trust...

If it is the way I fear ....
Then it may be me who loses all for now...
But once you will realise ...
There was somebody....

There was somebody
Who loved you more...
There was somebody
Who missed you most..
There was somebody
Who waited day long for u..
There was somebody
Who scolded you ... <at your every wrong>
There was somebody
Who smiled at your every deed...
There was somebody
Who trusted you the most
There was somebody
Who wished more of your success..
There was somebody
Who repented on your failures..
There was somebody
Who cared for u more...
Some one who honestly
Loved u the most...

A day not far,
A day when you would be
Along all your friends,
Still searching for a trusted ear to whisper a secret,
Searching for a hand you can tightly hold..
Searching for eyes of honest love
..only to lately realise about that friend ...
Whom you had so close,
Whom you left so far
In the past, in the lonely path...
Weeping alone as he waits for your voice of calling him,
As he waits for you to come back,.
Dreaming of the days to live as the old best friends!!
A dream to remain... a dream hard to realise....

Nayan